And then she asked me what I want
And I realized I didn’t know.
Instinctively, I thought sex
Because, well, I did.
But as I looked at her I realized that wasn’t it.
It was more than that.
I want love, I thought.
I want to lose myself in her completely.
And then before I knew what was happening,
I was speaking
Love, I said.
And she looked at me.
Is that confusion in her eyes? Pity?
I was sure I had said too much
Played my hand too soon.
It was just a fraction of a second
But in that moment
I wished for death.
Anything to end my humiliation.
But before my prayer could be answered
Her lips found mine.
I suddenly felt like I could have everything I ever wanted
I knew exactly the answer to her question.
You, I said.
I want you.
recently came across RegularJOE's RECord "Who are you?" and I was really moved by one of his answers. So I decided to do a lil remix and flesh it out a bit.....
here's the original question:
11. What are you craving right now?
sex, I mean, love, I mean, death, I mean, you
You left me in the stillness of a frozen afternoon
Drowning in the silence that remained
Alone with my thoughts
And your lingering scent
Each intake of breath
Of a happier time
Before mistakes had been made
Before cruel words had been spoken
Before this white blanket covered the ground
And mocked me with its coldness
A reflection of my heart
And the warmth of a love
I could barely remember
This was inspired by a photo of a snow-covered yard I saw on Instagram with the caption "struck by the stillness of a frozen afternoon"
I look into the mirror
And I see a stranger's eyes
I came for my reflection
But instead I just find lies
My dear friend Sleep
Comes knocking at my door
Begging to come in.
I love him dearly, and my heart breaks as daylight forces me to turn him away.
"Wait for me," I plead.
But when the sun has finally set
And I am ready for our rendezvous
I look for him everywhere
And he is nowhere to be found.