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- To Those Who Weren't as Lucky (voice only resource)
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This is is just the voice track for Sorry for the hiss. Doesn't matter so much with background music...
If you're looking for the full RECord, it's here: http://hitrecord.org/records/26252 If you don't know what this is, watch that first.
To Those Who Weren't as Lucky is the first installment in the Unfolding the Snow series. More to come.
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It's still 11:11 for me because I haven't slept. I've been working on this instead.
I'm thinking I'll put a bunch of these rants out on odd Thursdays, and eventually you guys can mix and match and make new ones. Sort of like refrigerator magnets. But with snow.
This is the first thing I've written since dan died. It was really necessary for me. He always wanted me to write poetry. I don't know if this counts, but it's what I got, so there you go.
I'm thinking I'll put a bunch of these rants out on odd Thursdays, and eventually you guys can mix and match and make new ones. Sort of like refrigerator magnets. But with snow.
This is the first thing I've written since dan died. It was really necessary for me. He always wanted me to write poetry. I don't know if this counts, but it's what I got, so there you go.
Just a resource. Teafaerie Unfolds the Snow.
(It's still 11:11 for me, cause I haven't slept...)
(It's still 11:11 for me, cause I haven't slept...)
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To Those Who Weren’t as Lucky by the Teafaerie To those who weren’t as lucky! a toast to our alternate selves we thought that it must be almost all of them but we vowed that we’d outplay even the luckiest because we were Us and this is what we got but we always saluted them all the ones who didn’t make it the ones who just missed it the ones who never found each other the ones who watched TV we saluted the careless and the unfortunate the ones who got broken the ones who died terrified and begging even sooner and more horribly and in reverse and the ones who never even knew what they wanted the ones who didn’t get it because they didn’t go for it the ones who couldn’t change enough who couldn’t even try the ones who compromised and the ones who couldn’t compromise the ones who never touched real magic the quitters, even I blow the Teahorn for you and to the luckier still I blow the Horn to those who were careful and to those who were blessed to the ones with their babies and their temples and their future you wanted to see my little old lady hands to put your little old man hands around them like a temple you wanted the future more than anybody well, here’s to the ones who lived forever to the ones who got it all the luckiest of the luckiest of the lucky to the ones who saved the world together you guys go I don’t hate you nothing can make me you just go go go go go go go go you go you be those guys do us proud and once in a while just salute us cause I’m going to be this one I’m going to be this guy and I’m going to love it I’m going to rock this guy because you have to love it because you can’t want to be somebody else not even your alternate selves not ever you can’t so I’m going to be this guy I’ll be the one who misses you every day so beautifully the universe doesn’t pull punches but nothing will ever make me say that it’s not perfect I will not despair I will not despair because we had the Real Thing infinity, perfection and I’m the one who got to see it, to be it, to touch it I’m the one who didn’t miss it the one who went for it, and got it I’m the one that you lived with I’m the one that you walked around the parking lot with counterclockwise and I’m the one that you saw yourself through and I saw my reflection in your eyes And I’m the one that you shared your breath with and I got to hear your heartbeat like a million times I knew the secret I’m the one who saw it happen and we were young gods in love together and we worked miracles we did work miracles we could hold a perfect moment without breaking it knowing that it was perfect and I was the one who walked back with you on the morning that we said forever when we passed right by the balloon chair thing that thing where you can go up in a lawn chair on giant helium balloons and we always wanted to do it every day since we were kids we both drew little pictures of it in the margins of our notebooks and we walked right by it so fucking decadent because infinity plus infinity is still infinity and infinity minus however much is still infinity and what’s been lost may be infinite but we really had it and if it had only lasted for that first night it still would have been perfect and it still would have been infinite and every choice I make kills thousand of futures some of them better all of them perfect and everything that I do I’ll still do with you cause how could we be apart? and everything I do is in your honor and I’m going to keep on being me for you, anyway I don’t really know how to be me without Us but I’ll keep on being something and I’ll force this to make me more beautiful and I’ll make it make me better because I have to and I’ll love you every day no matter what and I’ll love all of the other ones every day no matter what and I’ll teach them what you taught me about infinity, and perfection and I’m going to pick up the fallen standard and I’m going to keep the Teafire lit and I’m going to spread the flow and I’m going to save the goddam world somehow anyway I’m going to rock this one in your honor because this is what I got because it’s the only tale I have to tell and it’s the only way that I can make it worth it and there’s enough beauty in this crappy apartment to destroy me if I had the courage to open myself to it there’s enough right here everywhere it’s always the same thing it’s just you it’s just god it keeps changing shape in front of you but it’s the same thing it’s infinite, it’s perfect and I’m going to be this guy and you guys be you guys and I’ll salute the ones who weren’t as lucky the ones who didn’t make it everybody makes it everybody’s perfect I choose to be this one in your honor and I’m going to make it the best one that I can again by heart |
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