So here it goes... and here's to nothing. i'll give it my best but expect the worst because that's just the way i am. Am i shaking? Maybe we'll come out top or maybe things wont go as planned. This is scary, but i'll say it anyway. My heart is an idiot is like a freight train and i can't stop my hands from fidgeting. i knew this was a bad idea. i shouldn't have said anything. i shouldn't have told you. But chances are, you knew already. i hate that you know me better than i know myself. You saw all this coming, didn't you? Now comes the part were i should just shut my mouth but i'm gonna keep going because that's what i do when i'm frightened. Here is my request: Please love me Search your heart for a second. Isn't there anything i can do to change your mind? Can't you give me just the smallest hint as to what it is i need to change about myself to make this all work out? Can you tell me why i am good enough to be your confidant but not your lover? Can't i be our little secret? Why can't i stop talking? My lips are moving to keep me from thinking. Or to keep me form crying. But you already knew that about me, remember? And you are going to dismiss this whole conversation come sunrise and we will pretend this never happened. Make-believe it all away. make-believe me away. You'll keep on smiling as before. And i'll keep on pretending not to notice and that i'm all better. That all this nonsense, as you would have it, is in the past. But i've noticed that the past is destine to repeat itself. And i swear i've done this before. and i swear i've done this.

And it this moment

i've come to realize

you are an old situation

with a new

face.