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Lauren
- Canada
- Last Record: 2012-10-18 11:42:01 -0400
- Joined: Dec 29, 2011
- http://resonantbodies....
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I am a reluctant participant in my own life. A passive observer. There is no writer or director, no grand vision. Still, I'm always recording, prepared for the day that I can make something of it all. Countless photos and videos documenting the minutia. Intentions are set with the hope of follow through, but the reality is this that I rarely finish anything I start. To do lists pile up, never to be consulted again. My bulletin board is not a reminder of necessary steps to success, as it was intended. It's a reminder of what I haven't yet done, and will probably never do. I am reluctant to change. I can't even be bothered to sit up straight as I write this. I'm hunched over, neck crinked, back aching. I pay a team of professionals - with credit, mind you - to fix my s-i joint and ease my muscle pain. I can't pay them to make me care about my own body, though. And that's the crux of the matter: I don't care. |
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I spend hours looking at shelves in stores and libraries, in search of the best nail polish, seed sprouting kit, and compelling bedtime reading material. I attach goals and ambitions to them - d... |
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She worried, "There's something missing. So much I want to be." They said, "Just finish your thesis, then life can begin. Remember, there is more to this life... |
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Tugging beneath the surface, there is an all-consuming, hypocritical, guilt-ridden, thought. “I don’t yet love mysel... |
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Tugging beneath the surface, there is an all-consuming, hypocritical, guilt-ridden, thought. “I don’t yet love myself, do I?” |
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I am not sure where home is at the moment. Somewhere between yesterday and today, perhaps? Arguably it's where my parents are. I go there and behave in ways that belie my otherwise independent exis...
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I arrive home to Carleton Place after nearly 6 hours of public transportation. On this trip, I intended to visit a dear friend who was home from Alberta for only a few days. Shortly after arrivi... |
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Imagine gilmpsing our earth from another earth. What would you see? Today, I see darkness. I see murder at movie theatres and guns in gated communities. I see rifles at rallies, shoot-outs at sh... |
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Imagine gilmpsing our earth from another earth. What would you see? Today, I see darkness. I see murder at movie theatres and guns in gated communities. I see rifles at rallies, shoot-outs at sh... |
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