I presently live in a state of anticipation. What for? you may ask. It varies from time to time. Right now it the thought of going back to college and starting film classes again. After that be my anticipation will, undoubtedly, move on to when I get to come home. Is it normal to be in this constant state of anticipation, what is the reasoning behind it?
I wonder if it's the way I was raised. Watching toy commercials in between cartoons on Saturday morning, gazing with longing at new bicycles in stores. Is a side effect of being crafted to be a consumer the fact that you always anticipate things? (It would make sense, you'd want to buy more things because of your anticipation) Or maybe being in a constant state of anticipation is a way of me hanging onto my childhood. I remember I used to go crazy waiting for Christmas as a kid, where did that feeling go? I used to ask my parents over and over again "when are we leaving for vacation?" I don't anticipate those things anymore. Now I think about and want the next big event in my life that will give me a buzz.
Presently I anticipate a lot of things. If you ask me in two months what half of them are, I probably won't be able to tell you.