I wonder if he knows. If he realizes I've been in love with him since forever. To this day, I can't get Jonathan out of my head. It's like the thought of him burrows deeper and deeper until nothing else consumes me.
It's like that pesky little voice at the back of your mind. You know the one. The one that won't shut up and drones on and on about senseless things.
Don't shake your head! I know you know what I'm talking about!
I want to tell him. I really do. Every time I look into those beautiful baby blues, the urge to just open my mouth and blurt out what I'm feeling rises to the surface. Sadly, the moment he says something, common sense flies out the window and I'll forget about the fact that I want to pour my heart out to him.
I suppose the fact that he's been with Jessica has kept me quiet for this long. They're such a gorgeous couple. Blonde hair and devastatingly good looks - who wouldn't like them!
I suppose I'll tell him some day. If I work up the nerve to spill the beans about my secret, undying devotion for him. My heart will understand, right? At least, I hope it will.
I'm willing to wait for that boy. To make him see reason when the time comes. The question is will he like me just the way I am? Or will he laugh it off like its nothing once he knows my secret?