I blink a lot more than they give me credit. And make a lot more noise. It's just been harder nowadays. And it's darker than usual. Well, it's always dark now.

            I also don't move around as much as I use to. But there's a softness inside me that I've never felt before. A weight that's seems to have been lifted from me. As if my heart got replaced with nothingness. No will to do anything. Nothing. That's why I'm willing to just stay here in the darkness. I don't know if it necessarily feels good or not because I don't feel anything.

            But I think I enjoy it. But I don't even know if I'm thinking right now. My head also seems to be weightless.