you are having this thought

i hear and notice you having this thought

this thought is not me, nor does it reflect me

i have an emotion in reaction to your thought

this emotion is not mine, meaning it is not a reflection of me

i am only this moment

i do not identify with the past and i do not identify with a future

i am the space in which you exist

i do not judge or resent your presence because you are not me

you arise within me

i see now that the emotions and reaction I experience are you

i share my presence with you but i see now that i had been identifying who i am with who you are

i will use my mind and conscious presence thoughts as tools to enjoy my life situation while i am in this world of form

there is a lot i would like to do and add to my life situation and contribute to other people and the rest of life in this world while i have the experience of living my life in this form within this world of forms.

i am the life energy within my bodily form and my experience in this world of forms is a gift of having the opportunity to play a game or experiment through my experiences in the now presence

i would liken it to playing a video game- i, being the character I am playing as, and the world content of the game as being the world of form i exist in. the character i am playing as does not have a past or future, it does not identifiy with, or react to unconscious thoughts or emotions because it does not have any, because that that moment it is Me - it is only existing in the present that I am playing the game, therefore I Am playing the life situation of this video game character form in the video game world of form. At that present moment I Am as much the character in the game as I Am the bodily form of Allison right now. As I use my mind as a tool to play the game, I Am present making decisions for the character's life situation JUST AS i just my mind mind as a tool as Allison to write these thoughts. *I think being TRULY fully present and aware while playing the video game would equate to Being Me experiencing the life situation of the character form I am playing-- not Me experiencing the act of playing a video game in Allison's bodily form in the world of forms....So in way I guess I'm saying that when fully present in the Now, I can experience living as a form within a form- a life situation within a life situation- in a world of forms within a world of forms. 

***Being this present allows me to see who i really am. that i am not my bodily form because, if fully present, i can transend this world of forms into another and experience my life in a completely different form, within a completely different world.

because i am eternal presence and this bodily form,  its life situation within this world of forms, is just playing a game. of course there is much more depth and opportunity for deeper perspective and understanding in this this life situation, than as the video game character; however they both reflect the same fundamental truth that these forms and these life situations are irrefutably impermanent- but I Am not. I am presence, this experience as bodily form is a gift-- there are certainly hard parts to navigate through...just as there are hard levels and situations while playing a video game. BUT if I am present in either life situation, then nothing can affect me- because neither of them are Me. when I play a video game, i may want something to happen as the character-but i know the outcome does not change or reflect who I Am. most people will relate that that. therefore when things are hard or difficult I will be present and use my mind as a tool to address it--i will not get anxiety or fear the outcome because if it doesn't work out My Life will change or who I Am will be questioned. it may affect my life situation...but not Me.

I must enjoy this experience...not fear it...find my way back  the Divine Source presence and value the present moment of having the gift of experiencing this spiritual journey of learning and Living in this world while I am so lucky to be of it and within it. Perhaps try to learn why He created it as so, and what deeper meaning and purpose He intended Me, and every person, to find through His creation. I'm sure he is saddened to see how many are lost within this world- becuase just as my life situation is my own experiment in this form, of this world-- this world and Our collective experience within it is an experiment of His. I know that He did not intend for people to suffer- at least not in the way that has resulted from the human condition of egoic mind identification.

I -like all in the human form-was given the gift and opportunity to learn the deeper meaning of life, and maybe even learn something Greater that is hidden within His creations. He wanted us to learn some significant truth, or truths, through this bodily experience--perhaps because He thought it would be valuable to find it for ourselves through this bodily form, world of form, experience; as opposed to being given the deeper truth answer or information himself. If this is the case, then I KNOW within me that when We all return to the Divine Source- when We(I) leave our bodily forms, within this world of forms- We will all share in the same eternal truth, revealed. All sharing in one light, equal, at peace, in love, as One.