Owlbunny
by Chuchu
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I Wish: Somebody would turn my record into a song. You know this was my first record and i really put my heart into it, for me it is a very special record.


                                                                                              


 


Since youve been away,


my whole life has changed and I feel like I kissed the devil. I feel so numb and only the tears that I cry tell me Im still feeling.Maybe if I just had faced the truth that we all had to go sooner or later, I guess the pain wouldnt be so bad right now. But I couldnt let go, and I still dont wanna let got, but i have to. Because I have to live my life. And everybody who thinks Im talking about breaking up with someone, then let me tell you:  The death, is the lovers badest enemy!


Since youve been away,


I still hear youre voice, I still smell youre perfume and I still feel youre hand touching my hand. All the things you gave me and also if it just was a very tiny gift. It has a much bigger meaning than before. Now I realize that you feeled the same when grandma died. And now I understand why you were so mad at me when I crushed grandmas vase. Cause it was one of the things she left, when she went away. I appreciate more than ever what I had in you, and, Hell yeah, I miss you!


Since youve been away,


When Im standing at your grave, a big memory flash comes over me. Only we both know what we had been through. All the problems we solved. Mostly without telling papa :) Now when I look at your pictures, I recognize the fun we had wasnt just a matter of course. I know it was luck ,and not everybody in the world can enjoy that kind of luck we had. Now that i face the truth and I recognize we all have to go sooner or later, I know in the end we´ll be happy together. I almost cant wait to see you again, but we both have to wait.


Since youve been away,


I know it hurts, but my time hasnt come yet. I miss you my Golden Girl. I will always miss you, until God hopefully sends me up to heaven. And then there will be no problems and no disease, but you have to wait, cause now its my time to proove myself. Proove, if I can be the same strong woman as you were at once. We both know my life shouldnt be filled with sadness. I have to look forward, and after those painfull times there will be times of joy. This homeless feeling should´ve filled with warmth. I will never forget you my Golden Girl! You will always be a part of my life.... always...


(In loving memory of my mom RIP 5th June 2010)

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  • Owlbunny
    Thanks for the hearts my lovely hitrecorders!!! xxx
    by Chuchu
  • Owlbunny
    Thanks for your hearts DianeFT and ThadicalRadical :-)
    by Chuchu
  • Owlbunny
    Thanks for your hearts Mic, todd, bloemday!!
    by Chuchu
  • Owlbunny
    thanks for your heart melismayhem!!!
    by Chuchu
  • Owlbunny
    I really put my heart into that!
    by Chuchu
  • Owlbunny
    thanks for your heart Emma Conner :)
    by Chuchu
  • Owlbunny
    Wow thanks a lot for the love my lovely hitrecorders: supriyaheart, sinnamin, Joab Nevo, sweetheart carole and lysiemoto. I really appreciate your hearts, they mean a lot to me! Love ya┬┤ll!
    by Chuchu
  • Owlbunny
    I just wanted to get rid of me, that after I had "Unsend Letter" published here as it has helped me with the death of my mother and aunt cope. Some days it is indeed damn still hard to know what I will confirm probably some of you to write but by that of "Unsend Letter" I could slowly start to life and I'm glad I found hitrecorder to publish it. Lots of thanks!!!
    by Chuchu
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