you make me feel so

that my eyes roll

till I see colours

inside my head.

I get my claws in

to what I'm thinking

I carry thoughts that

are made of lead.

And they sink down

into my heart

like a shipwreck

in a goldfish bowl.

I'll drag them out,

kiss them goodbye,

set them on fire,

and send them up to the sky.

There are some things

holding me back

from saying

what's on my mind

It falls on deaf ears

and that's what I fear

I'd spill my guts

But you just disappear.

I see you fading

Into something

More confusing

In disarray

With tangled wires

and robot parts

mechanical -

a tied up heart.