I'll be walking down the street
Or dancing at a party
Or reading a book in a coffeeshop
Or rushing to one of my college classes

and I'll feel it

The burning in my veins
The tingling in my heart
Like I'm alive for the first time
Like I can breathe 

And I'll look up and find a face
Looking at me with the exact same intensity
And the beautiful, perfect understanding
He'll look at me like he knows
Because as unlikely as it is, he will

And my soul will want to scream
And rush, and hug, and kiss
Like a long lost friend
Like a long lost love
Lost in the waves of the endless sea
In our endless lives

And I'll look at the face of this familiar stranger
And we'll both smile, shaken to the core
And the world will break, and stop, and change
And when that happens, I'll know.

I remember the first time I went to NY. We took this typical yellow cab ! The driver was so nice, he tell us about his country, what we should do...He had such a big accent I didin't really understand a thing but it was nice.

The only thing I could think of was the skyscrapers, I wanted to see them immediately but there was so much fog, even when we knew we were close we couldn't see anything. And suddenly I realized the NY I wanted to see was right in front of me. It was like all these buildings had poped up from the ground.

It was one of the most exciting moment of my life.

You know when you feel like you are stuck in the middle. 

the middle of nowhere- not here or there

Its that feeling of uncertanty, that scary feeling 

the feeling of being insecure like somebody could pull the carpet from under your feet at any goven time and your lfe would come crashing down. 

Uncertinty comes along with our concern for our future, the unknow, the not ment to be known, 

And when we realize we don't know we begin to second guess and try and prepare, hypervenelate and try to stay aware. 

What scares us more is when we realize that we are humans.. simple minded humans that are going to make simple minded human mistakes, no matter how much you prepare. there will always be "what ifs" and "if onlys" to make us feel bad about the choices we make. And it is just our human way not to accept that fact. AND THAT IS THAT.

In the foreign place I stayed, I took the dogs out every day. Spirit pulled me forward as if there were pertinent business off in the distance that needed tending to, and Jack simultaneously pulled me backward to smell something on the side of the road. As we left behind the sheep and the few red wooden houses and an old storehouse, one could see that the land was impossibly flat. Pale yellow fields stretched on, stopped only by patches of blue-green forest, perfectly vertical trees that huddled together and waited. It was always quiet and the crisp, cold sky was open wide, always continuing, uninterrupted by mountains or hills or even bumps in the road. The ground could no longer contain the autumn rain, which turned the grasses overnight into puddles into ponds into bright mirrors reflecting the Northern Sun. The soles of my shoes sent the gravel skipping along, the sound amplified by surrounding stillness. Sometimes I began to sing, if for no other reason than there was no one there to hear me. I let all the sounds out without singing a word. I sang on and on and I kept walking.  I could be whoever I wanted and I kept at it, my sounds absorbed by the air that reached upward and outward and onward forever. These were the times the dogs calmed, kindly returning my marionette arms to their sockets. The times that I sang, the dogs stopped pulling.

Dolphins are awesome. What an awesome sea creature. Dolphins are proof that sea creatures have a moral code of their own out in the ocean...I feel worse for dolphins in captivity.. They aren't going to kill a human being that takes care of them, they'll always long for the day they are in complete control of their freedom.. Their sonar system acts as an ultra sound scan... Dolphins have extra sensory powers..