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Gweninterrupted-875702
Released 2011-05-23 21:29:01 -0700
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The main voice and visual on this were RECorded by the video camera itself- all in one take, in the middle of a panic attack i was having locked away inside of a bathroom in my old apartment. Harmonies and visual effects were added later. i thought this might be cool for the dream collab. The lyrics are about fears at bedtime- which for me stem from my PTSD.

Nothing Left of Me {Lyrics}

i sing myself to sleep
knowing they are coming for me
i am getting weak
maybe they will just ignore me

i sing myself to sleep
feeling them creep up behind me
i am getting weak
maybe they will never find me

how am i supposed to close my eyes
when i know the monsters are waiting just outside?
you tell me again and again that they're not there
Which makes it so hard to explain why i'm so scared

but they're coming for me
i'm starting to shake
i'm not sure how much more
of this i can take
and i don't know if i will ever feel safe

i am scared in my sleep
awake in my dreams
my mind is falling apart at the seams
and come morning there'll be
nothing left of me

i sing myself to sleep
hiding underneath the covers
i am getting weak
feeling like i'm being smothered
i sing myself to sleep
terrified of going under
and i am getting weak
i'm getting weak
i'm getting weak

how am i supposed to rest my head
when i know the monsters are gathered 'round my bed?
you tell me to try to pretend that they're not there
but i feel them running their fingers through my hair

because they're coming for me
i'm starting to shake
i'm not sure how much more
of this i can take
and i don't know if i will ever feel safe

i am scared in my sleep
awake in my dreams
my mind is falling apart at the seams
and come morning there'll be
nothing left of me

Love.
<3
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Music inspired by the theme from Rosemary's Baby.


ICON: "Simple" By Wirrow. <3


 


~Squirm Lullaby~ {lyrics}
(Voices & Breathing Only...)

Are you uncomfortable?
Do you have things to do?
Are you ambitious, boy?
i can take care of that...
i'll be your comforter
if you will comfort me
now just lay back
and close your eyes
and tell me what you see...

Do you see God?
Do you see scary things?
Are you afraid
of what may come if you
don't tell on me?
Do you see God?
Do you see scary things?
Are you afraid
of what may come if you
don't tell on me?

Baby...
Don't you cry...
Maybe...
...you'll be okay tonight...
Baby...
Don't you cry...
Maybe...
...you'll be okay tonight...

Why must you always squirm?
Why won't you just lie still?
Are you afraid of me?
Well, i can take care of that...
Just send your mind away
but leave your body here
Now just stay calm
and close your eyes
and tell me what you fear

Do you fear love?
Maybe abandonment?
Are you afraid to feel the anger
you should hold for me?
Do you want love?
Do you want sympathy?
Are you afraid to feel
the love that you
should hold for me?

Baby...
Don't you cry...
Baby...
Don't you cry...
Baby...
Don't you cry...
Maybe...
...you'll be okay tonight...


 




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Time: 1:40 - 1:42 ( clock )

For the segment in TCTTLO that says "In two days..."
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just pretend you made it up


tell the nice policemen that


you're sorry to have caused a fuss


that his apology's enough


he told them that


his hand just slipped


isn't that the way of it?


now close your eyes


and clench your fists


and say it how we practiced


as if it never happened...


with you dead i'll sleep more sound


your ghost won't come around


it knows you did me wrong


just as you knew all along


 


 


 


 

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All stitched up with no place to go


All fixed up for a happy home


won't someone please take me in


hold my hand and be my friend


All stitched up with time to kill


All fixed up with a void to fill


won't someone please let me be


a part of your life that's necessary


All stitched up with a gleam in my eye


all fixed up and ready to try


won't someone please love me like i


am an important part of your life

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everthing spins round and round


everything turns upside down


everything is magical


defying what is factual


the flowers here grow ten feet tall


the shrubbery all creeps and crawls


the trees all whisper lullabys


to unsuspecting passers-by


watch out for the ladybugs


they all want to give you hugs


but they'll have to wait in line


the Caterpillar's right behind


the Dormouse and the Hatter here


they all want to make it clear


that you are welcome anytime


you just need to clear your mind


of overwrought reality


because in actuality


everything is just a dream


no matter how your world may seem

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kiss me on my head and tell me i will be okay


tell me that it's time to let go of my childish ways


tell me that i'm beautiful so i don't need to hide


tell me that it's time to let go of the pain inside


reach out for my hand when i am crying in the dark


promise me life wasn't meant to be so fucking hard


lie in this bed next to me convincing me i'm safe


if i cannot die happily this life has been a waste


when i needed you, you were there for me

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out of sight
out of mind
forgotten
left behind
there was a time when
we were so close
but that time has come and gone
i'm sorry i couldn't live up to your wants
i know i did everything wrong

what i wouldn't give
if i could just spend
another night wrapped in your arms
i would spend it trying to memorize
your face, your voice and your charms
out of sight
out of mind
forgotten
left behind

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You awake looking up at me


Must be the most beautiful thing i've seen


Don't want someone else


Don't want someone new


i just want you


Open your eyes and look up at me


Don't feel like you have to speak


Don't say anything


i know what's in your heart


'cause i'm feeling it too


i just want you

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a winding corridor


a staircase with no end


forever is a state of mind


in this labyrinth


a hallway lost in time


suspended in this space


with memories of short moments


all lost without a trace


forever is a memory


forever is a thought


locked inside a palace


in the land that time forgot


the clocks all tick in place


the oceans have no tide


the moon and sun shine brightly


all day noon and night

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Motionless
i lie and wait
There's only so much
i can take
i've been alone for oh so long
i thought i'd put it in this song

i'm Motionless
emotionless
i feel no love
at least not enough
i'm motionless

i'm Motionless
emotionless
i feel no love

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i've got a lot to say


but why bother?


it's never easier-


only harder


i want a mother


and a father


and not to see myself


as a martyr


i want to sleep at night


without a fucking care


i want a loving hand


to stroke my hair


tell me everything


will be okay this time


and that someday i'll wake up


from this dream of mine


 


 


 


 

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alone in the room as the sight fills my eye


what did i see?


why did i cry?


alone in the room as the sound fills my ear


why was i scared?


what did i hear?


alone in the room as your thought fills my head


i am not alone


i am with you instead


 


 


 

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Dearest HitRECord artists, YOU make me smile. Thank you. Love, ~gwendolyn~ <3

i used OVER 100 image RECords to make this!!! =)

It's really interesting to me how all of these images take on a NEW vibe when viewed all together- at the same time- with a theme in mind. =)

NOTE: If i missed a reference to your picture, please let me know so i can make sure to add you! Thanks! =) <3

NEW added NOTE: i've just discovered that some of the RECords i was sure i had included are missing- especially some of iambatgirl's drawings... Maybe i will make a SECOND VERSION!!!! There's plenty more H.R.Wonderland for all of us to see! =)
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crack smack heart attack joke smoke gotta toke lean mean jellybean bar brawl gutterball plain jane in the rain let get very wet me on cherry tree 333 fat rat sick of that hard lard in the yard fuck buck better luck must lust never trust then send gwendolyn plain jane gonna hang me on cherry tree 333.

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Everyone reminds me of the girl i used to know


But i'm a little better than i was a year or two ago


i'd cry out for her in my sleep


i'd search for her in every dream


she made me change


she made me strange


a little girl trapped in a big girl's world

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Voicescapes {by gweninterrupted}
http://hitrecord.org/records/52136
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What shall i do? i don't have you... Maybe you'll be in my dreams. <3 {Written @ age 17.}
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Inspired by Gregg Araki film soundtracks... <3
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Too much trouble
too much worry
too scared of people
who could hurt me

too many fears and
too many problems
i find i'm hiding
way too often

too much chaos
too much crying
i'm almost getting
too sick of trying
sick of trying...

but it's a big bad world out there
and it doesn't seem
that anyone is playing fair

i'm a scaredy cat...

Too much sadness
Too much pity
Has left me feeling
kind of shitty

too much madness
too much blaming
but that's the way that
my maker made me

i'm not a strong girl
i'm a weakling
i know that looks can
be deceiving

but it's a big bad world out there
and it doesn't seem
that anyone is playing fair

i'm a scaredy cat...

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with AH's. =)

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the... circus is coming to town


the circus is coming to town


the circus is coming to town, town, town


the circus is coming to town


there will be tightrope walking


trampolines


clowns and bears and fire rings


lions, tigers


cannons shooting


sparklers spinning


horns-a-hooting


elephants and cotton candy


crowds of people feeling dandy


the circus is coming to town

2011-05-29 19:45:17 -0700
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girl be careful on your way back home
don't walk down any alleyways alone
the shadows are alive and closing in
they've been following you everywhere you've been

check the corners, check the ceiling,
check the walls
check beside you floating down the hall
check the lobby, check your bedroom, check the den
'cause they've been following you everywhere you've been

the shadows are alive and closing in...

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Please don't leave
i can't be alone tonight
Please don't leave
don't tell me i will be alright

i need you now
more than i ever did before
i need you now
please don't walk outside that door

i feel so alone tonight i'm afraid that i might cry
i'm holding back a stream of tears as i wonder why
my life had to unfold this way and where i went so wrong
the secret to my happiness lied in you all along
so i beg
please don't leave

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look on the bright side
look on the bright side
it's almost over
it's almost over
no need to worry
no need to worry
that's what they told her
that's what they told her

look on the bright side
look on the bright side
it's just a nightmare
it's just a nightmare
no need to panic
no need to panic
she shouldn't be scared
she shouldn't be scared

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http://www.pdinfo.com/listPDsongs/PDChildrenSongs.htm

Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky!

Repeat:
*Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!*

When the blazing sun is gone,
When he nothing shines upon,
Then you show your little light,
Twinkle, twinkle, all the night.
(*repeat)

Then the traveller in the dark,
Thanks you for your tiny spark,
He could not see which way to go,
If you did not twinkle so.
(*repeat)

In the dark blue sky you keep,
And often through my curtains peep,
For you never shut your eye,
Till the sun is in the sky.
(*repeat)

As your bright and tiny spark,
Lights the traveller in the dark,—
Though I know not what you are,
Twinkle, twinkle, little star.
(*repeat)
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You move me
with your words
you move me
with your mind
you move me
with your sentiments
you move me
deep inside

forgive me
if i seem moody
forgive me
if i cry
forgive me
for being overwhelmed
forgive me
deep inside

Please keep me
in your thoughts
Please keep me
in your sight
Please keep me
in your memories
Please keep me
deep inside

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You move me
with your words
you move me
with your mind
you move me
with your sentiments
you move me
deep inside

forgive me
if i seem moody
forgive me
if i cry
forgive me
for being overwhelmed
forgive me
deep inside

Please keep me
in your thoughts
Please keep me
in your sight
Please keep me
in your memories
Please keep me
deep inside

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<3

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Instrumentation and melody by Madrond101.


Lyrics:


You think you're awake
but then it seems
It's only a dream
You're magically there
Flying through clouds
And walking on air

You have disappeared to
a marvelous place
somewhere out in space
You are mysticalized
Forever young
Forever wise

Fly
Fly
Sky
High


*Inspired by DAN. <3





 


 


 


 


 

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Alright. i'm pretty fuckin' proud of myself for this one... i admit it. *heh*

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Any excuse to sing with Ryan Patrick... ;)

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