When I think of fantasty, I always think of Wonderland...

gwen's loop of lala's and breathing is the most amazing record ive heard on this website. i'll definitely be making more things out of this.

the title is my nod to the wonderful sparklehorse. "it's a sad and beautiful life" r.i.p

we can be star-ways upside down-ways any way you like

we see moons n suns where others see the city lights

i know you like the fear, ive seen your eyes light up

when theres a human sacrifice

i know you like to panic and ring the alarms

but we are superloving creatures and we mean you no harm

you're never alone you know

it's a wonderful life

I wanted to do something for the Inception collab using photography, so I decided to mix loads of random pics with horrorshock's awesome animation (Little Red Balloon). It's like those crazy dreams full of disconnected images. It may not be suitable to the documentary but I really wanted to give it a try. 

Audio only. =)

i've got a lot to say

but why bother?

it's never easier-

only harder

i want a mother

and a father

and not to see myself

as a martyr

i want to sleep at night

without a fucking care

i want a loving hand

to stroke my hair

tell me everything

will be okay this time

and that someday i'll wake up

from this dream of mine

Can they tell what we've been through?

Do they know me?

Do they know you?

Should we forget or know the truth-

even if it means we lose our youth

How do we keep living in this

terrible mysterious skin?

How do we keep living in

our unbearable mysterious skin?

kiss me on my head and tell me i will be okay

tell me that it's time to let go of my childish ways

tell me that i'm beautiful so i don't need to hide

tell me that it's time to let go of the pain inside

reach out for my hand when i am crying in the dark

promise me life wasn't meant to be so fucking hard

lie in this bed next to me convincing me i'm safe

if i cannot die happily this life has been a waste

when i needed you, you were there for me

*Audio Only.*  A REmix of Ray Perez - "1984". =)

well this kinda got out of hand... kinda

started this morning with a simple dubstep riddim (bassline and drumbeat) and thought: "this is kinda empty. get some metaphorest in this bitch!" remembered raven and started setting up the riddim to fit ravens. had to stop. tonight heard gwen's "fuck hitrecord" and then the hesher collab. sampled about everything i could use for this bit from the intro video and came up with several drum and bass beats. then the mix got ful very quickly. "me thinkst i need a challenge" - the challenge then was to use only a minimalistic amount of samples / instruments. all drumbeats are from the same samples. all basslines are from the same synth. the final bassline is based on the sample "how the fuck did i end up in this hitrecord video" - same cadence.

90% through and the main arrangement in place i started playing with ravens again. inserted a few references to keep the mix flowing and to make it entertaining but not too cluttered.

finally a few minutes ago gwen hit record again and MADE! me use her hitrecord harmonies :D

ps: overall time spent: 5 hours. a little over the usual limit but it was worth it.

...felt like I was singing with Stevie Nicks on this one (made me nervous)!

Memories fading thoughts escaping Losing track of time absent minded rear view blinded scared of what i'll find don't rewind me don't remind me let me live in peace trying to think clearly but my mind is so diseased post traumatic so dramatic memories start to spill cannot store these horror stories without turning ill they're so twisted so sadistic i try to forget but my memories warn me that this is not over yet

This is a love song to HESHER!  *haha*

crack smack heart attack joke smoke gotta toke lean mean jellybean bar brawl gutterball plain jane in the rain let get very wet me on cherry tree 333 fat rat sick of that hard lard in the yard fuck buck better luck must lust never trust then send gwendolyn plain jane gonna hang me on cherry tree 333.

Everyone reminds me of the girl i used to know

But i'm a little better than i was a year or two ago

i'd cry out for her in my sleep

i'd search for her in every dream

she made me change

she made me strange

a little girl trapped in a big girl's world

All stitched up with no place to go

All fixed up for a happy home

won't someone please take me in

hold my hand and be my friend

All stitched up with time to kill

All fixed up with a void to fill

won't someone please let me be

a part of your life that's necessary

All stitched up with a gleam in my eye

all fixed up and ready to try

won't someone please love me like i

am an important part of your life

with AH's. =)

everthing spins round and round

everything turns upside down

everything is magical

defying what is factual

the flowers here grow ten feet tall

the shrubbery all creeps and crawls

the trees all whisper lullabys

to unsuspecting passers-by

watch out for the ladybugs

they all want to give you hugs

but they'll have to wait in line

the Caterpillar's right behind

the Dormouse and the Hatter here

they all want to make it clear

that you are welcome anytime

you just need to clear your mind

of overwrought reality

because in actuality

everything is just a dream

no matter how your world may seem

Motionless
i lie and wait
There's only so much
i can take
i've been alone for oh so long
i thought i'd put it in this song

i'm Motionless
emotionless
i feel no love
at least not enough
i'm motionless

i'm Motionless
emotionless
i feel no love

thought I'd give a shot at turning it into a performance piece ...a possible soundtrack for a future video...

girl be careful on your way back home
don't walk down any alleyways alone
the shadows are alive and closing in
they've been following you everywhere you've been

check the corners, check the ceiling,
check the walls
check beside you floating down the hall
check the lobby, check your bedroom, check the den
'cause they've been following you everywhere you've been

the shadows are alive and closing in...

a winding corridor

a staircase with no end

forever is a state of mind

in this labyrinth

a hallway lost in time

suspended in this space

with memories of short moments

all lost without a trace

forever is a memory

forever is a thought

locked inside a palace

in the land that time forgot

the clocks all tick in place

the oceans have no tide

the moon and sun shine brightly

all day noon and night

Please don't leave
i can't be alone tonight
Please don't leave
don't tell me i will be alright

i need you now
more than i ever did before
i need you now
please don't walk outside that door

i feel so alone tonight i'm afraid that i might cry
i'm holding back a stream of tears as i wonder why
my life had to unfold this way and where i went so wrong
the secret to my happiness lied in you all along
so i beg
please don't leave

the... circus is coming to town

the circus is coming to town

the circus is coming to town, town, town

the circus is coming to town

there will be tightrope walking

trampolines

clowns and bears and fire rings

lions, tigers

cannons shooting

sparklers spinning

horns-a-hooting

elephants and cotton candy

crowds of people feeling dandy

the circus is coming to town

out of sight
out of mind
forgotten
left behind
there was a time when
we were so close
but that time has come and gone
i'm sorry i couldn't live up to your wants
i know i did everything wrong

what i wouldn't give
if i could just spend
another night wrapped in your arms
i would spend it trying to memorize
your face, your voice and your charms
out of sight
out of mind
forgotten
left behind

look on the bright side
look on the bright side
it's almost over
it's almost over
no need to worry
no need to worry
that's what they told her
that's what they told her

look on the bright side
look on the bright side
it's just a nightmare
it's just a nightmare
no need to panic
no need to panic
she shouldn't be scared
she shouldn't be scared

Too much trouble
too much worry
too scared of people
who could hurt me

too many fears and
too many problems
i find i'm hiding
way too often

too much chaos
too much crying
i'm almost getting
too sick of trying
sick of trying...

but it's a big bad world out there
and it doesn't seem
that anyone is playing fair

i'm a scaredy cat...

Too much sadness
Too much pity
Has left me feeling
kind of shitty

too much madness
too much blaming
but that's the way that
my maker made me

i'm not a strong girl
i'm a weakling
i know that looks can
be deceiving

but it's a big bad world out there
and it doesn't seem
that anyone is playing fair

i'm a scaredy cat...

Some footage taken in London, that focuses mainly on transport; travelling via walking, trains, subway and on the bus. i thought that Wirrow's melodic piece suits the rhythm of city transport. Also i thought it could be used as stock footage for other videos that need scenes of movement and transport. 

LYRICS:

let's play pretend
until the end, 
whenever that will be.

we'll dress in gowns 
and dance around 
and jump into the sea.

we'll float and fly 
straight through the sky 
in our hot air balloon,

and then we'll race 
to outer space 
and steal ourselves the moon.

let's make believe 
and never leave 
our own fantasy land.

we'll sing love songs 
forever long, 
now wouldn't that be grand?

and even though 
inside we'll know 
nothing is as it seems,

as long as we're 
together here, 
who needs reality?

sang my lyrics over wirrow/gwen's amazing song. um... i hope this isn't terrible. <3 be sure to check out metaphorest's song for these lyrics (resourced) - it's the cheerful version. this is the melancholy version...

I've gotta say, being a hitrecorder sure makes finding footage for my final video class project a snap! Here's the result. I am pretty sure I am missing a resource since I downloaded some of these a while ago, please if you see your stuff let me know and I'll fix it!

Just geeking out on languages again. To any italian speakers out there: apologies for the huge amount of mistakes I undoubtedly made. It's been a while since I did something like this

Signore e Signori

Il mondo e’ molto piu grande, e molto piu strano di quello di che ci hanno detto

Ci sono delle cose straordinarie nelle vite quotiodiane

Ci sono dei tesori negli ombri conosciuti

Ti hanno tenuto coperto,

Coperto del mondo pericoloso ed indomabile dell attuale.

Ti serviamo tutto in un piatto d’argento, impachetatto ed immacolatto

I gingilli, prodottati mitementi in massa

I caffe aziendali omnipresenti

I media elaborati, docili, autotuned, che riempono i tuoi schermi e i tuoi onde.

Ti abbiamo anestetizzato come un huxleyan soma

Con tutto l’aroma d’ordine e controllo

Anche se il disordine della tua natura anarchica batte contro la tua anima

Non saremmo mai como te.

Allora, ti riduciamo alla simplicta

Ma..hai le scintille di divinita’

Sei sposato all’infinita’

Ti faciamo temere le tue imperfezione

Ma, infatti, sono I diaminti del tuo

E sempre ti offrirano le variazione innimaginnabile

Ti hai dimenticato come sognare

Perche lo abbiamo togliato della tua lingua

Ma ci sono delle cose misteriose ed incantevole dentro di te che no si possono spiegare

E se qualcosa non puo essere spiegato razionalmente, le nostre macchine non computeranno

Ti stanno guardando, amico mio.

Sei un animale tassato

Sei un numero sul nostro schermo

E cerchi solo la sfilata pacifica dei disegni sul schermo

La melodia tranquila della ninnananna aziendale

Questo e un invito

Lascia i tuoi giornali

Spegna le tue televisione

Perche c’e una guerra per il tuo cervello

 E cominci a avere paura

Ti hai dimenticato della tua vera liberta, eil il tuo potere

Dentro di te, c’e un fuoco crepitante

Che non e raffredatto per la commodiata o la paura

Un fuoco che brucia in tutto

Un fuoco che puo protrare I tuoi colleghi delle acque stagnante

E che puo reimaginare il tuo mondo, senza capo, e senza classe

Senza borse delle fondazione riche

Un mondo che non e fatto di atomi: ma di storie

Un mondo che cambia di forma con ogno sogno ad occhi aperti che interviene nella tua vita quotidiana.

E i momenti soporiferi della beatitudine creativa

Le palpitzaione bizarre con gli amanti che baci

Le strutture complesse che inventi

Le notte senza fine che tirano le stelle negli tuoi occhi

Ci sono delle traccie di luce nei sogni collettivi

C’e una sensibilita’ nelle macchine buttate

Tutto il mondo e inebriante

Tutto brucia, tutto il tempo

E sei confinato solo per le limite della tua immaginazione

Tutto il resto ti seguira’

Il mondo ti seguira’

Cosi sopra

Cosi sotto

Un paradiso nuovo

E un mondo nuovo.

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