[// I wanted to come up with another trilogy, but couldn't seem to figure out a good chord progression. Well that all changed with "the werewolf"'s basic beginning chords: I could easily do three different styles (well...different to me, I suppose) and somewhat have a through-line. While the other two aren't as blatant as this one about its werewolf narrative, I tried to make it as ambiguous as possible. How well that turned out, I'm not sure, but I love the shit out of this song. Man, that sounds pretentious, but I don't mean it to be. It was just fun to write and record. //]

there's something beautiful i don't understand
when i watched the bodies decompose

i could not hear your howl; the wind was wrapping around my heart
i wonder now if you would stay knowing i would always be the same
i wonder if it'd grow on you…

the winter's chill has no effect on me now
i know it's only temporary
and when i wake from my hibernation
i'll still smell the blood on my skin

i could not see you dancing under the harvest moon
i wonder now if i would have stayed had i known you'd change
i wonder if you'd grow on me

heaven wouldn't allow
your metamorphosis

[it was our special world]

[// I have always had an endless fascination with the ideas of children and their thought processes, their innocence and naivety. I am always trying to tap into that somehow, and I might have gotten close with this one. I'm very proud of it, and it seems as though via was happy to have it part of her awesome collaboration. And any time you can make Mr. Matt Conley happy, well, that's a good day, overall, I think. //]

Another version of the same theme. I couldn't decide which one I liked better. Basically the same chords but played differently and this time with lyrics (below). Again, I hope this is good for via's collab; it tends to be right up my alley...



when we were kids // we knew the score
and it was always in our favor
when we were kids // when we were bored
we would count the dots on the ceiling

we had all the time in the world
when each day bled into the next
i will cherish them always

when we were kids // we couldn't imagine
how the world would feel without our parents around
and as we grew up // it slowly dawned on us
that what we had was not attainable again

let's not regret those foolish games we played
we were kids and it seemed logical then
what little the pictures can tell us now
is all we'll have as the memories decay
i will cherish you always

i always pretended i was asleep...

[// The title refers to the Nazi party's ideology: for blood and soil. Obviously the song isn't meant to be Nazi propaganda one way or the other; I just have always had a strange fascination with the way a small group of minds held sway over so many, and how it influenced so many facets of our everyday life, both domestically and foreign. This song also marks a big step for me: I swore I'd never have solos in my songs, because I felt like they were so out of place in the things I wrote. Also, I just hated the fact that every time I played an open mic, the guy who did the coolest solo won. That always pissed me off. Cocky prick. Anyway, enjoy! //]

[// What if mid-90's the Smashing Pumpkins and early 00's Nada Surf had an illegitimate baby that sort of resembled a sad SmashingPumpkins/Nada Surf impersonation? Well, I found out when I wrote this song.

Seriously, "our own little asia"? What the f does that mean?? That's pretty f'd up, Jer. Srsly. //]

i don't quite understand what's going on
but i'm sure, in time, it'll come to me...
...i don't read enough about current events...
but i'm sure, in time, it'll clear itself up...

we'll spend our time look out for each other
and leave the rest of the world to drown itself
all those times, i bled

and the clouds are beginning to rotate
that always signifies some sort of change
whatever hours we wasted counting raindrops
could have been spent fixing all the holes

and i don't read enough about current events...
but i'm sure, in time, it'll work itself out

we'll count all the bodies
and shake the floor loose, shake the floor loose
watch them all just slide between the cracks
making wet sounds as they fall underneath
it can be our own little asia

[// This is an example of a song that I love so dearly and think is a masterpiece just completely catching on with almost no one. If any of you have noticed, I have made sure it stayed in sight on my main hitRECord page since I set this thing up, and it's just not working. I have put this on countless album releases over and over. The only feedback I ever got was from my manager at my job who said "Huh...different."

::sigh:: Oh well. I'll just have to put it in yet another album, crying out into the night.

Or I could just let it go.

Too late. //]

This was made in the first weeks of receiving my new Mac - this song was the christening of my new machine.

i will.

[// If Billy Corgan had a grave, he'd be rolling in it. //]

With Sat and Manwithhat's beautiful video of the poem "The City of Masks", I have written a small piece of music for it. I hope it does their work justice, and hopefully adds a little more to their beautiful verbal portrait.

[// Aww, Sat. Remember the good ol' days? Yeah. Those were great. I loved this RECord from Sat/ManWithHat, and it was the first time I ever collaborated on hitRECord. What a great day that was. //]

[// Who isn't a fan of Tori and her amazing RECords? I could go on and on about her wonderful style and massive imagination, but I don't know if she could take it, really.

I am proud of this song. There isn't much to it, and the video quality is horrible because I (as stated earlier) cannot edit video at all. But I wanted to capture the soft loneliness to what I felt was some grayed-out melancholy. Not too bad, I suppose. Go check out Tori's original. Much prettier. //]

Another wonderful video from Tori; I decided to put in some background music for it. (I hope you can forgive the compression - I haven't been able to work out .wmv files perfectly just yet...I'll post the entire MP3 RECord on my main page if anyone wants to get the picture a little clearer...)

[// Again, I'm just jumping on the "Metaphorest-is-a-Goddess" bandwagon, but it seems fitting. I tried to add a little reverberation and soft solo to her already absolutely perfect ode to hitRECord. Such majesty she has in that talented brain of hers. //]

As if I couldn't say enough about how great Metaphorest's song "I'm Gonna HitRECord" is...I decided to actually remix it, adding bass and a little solo riff in there. I hope you enjoy it Metaphorest as well as all the other HitRECorders out there!

This is just version 1 of the music I wanted to put behind Philip Baker Hall (Magnolia holy crap) amazing reading of Mr. Johnson's "The Man in the Herringbone Hat" RECord.

[// There is something in my bones that screams "angry western music", and I just felt, when I listened to this amazing RECord by RegularJoe/rcjohnso that I should add an underlying sense of dread, even if that wasn't the author's original intention. Did it work? I'm not sure, but it was fun coming up with something distorted nonetheless. //]

[// Love the county fair. Love it. It's just starting to get chilly. The air has a soft breeze, so the smells and the lights sort of blend together...it's a wonderful memory from my childhood that I think wasn't horribly put to sound here. One of my earliest recordings that wasn't recorded off of a tape deck alone in the bedroom, it still makes me think of that time in my life where all I had to worry about was how goofy I looked in my glasses and if I was ever going to grow the balls to ride on the ferris wheel (update: I still haven't.) //]

This is the very small infant sibling to KKF's "Antisocial Butterflies"...

[// I've always had another intense fascination/fear with/of paranormal activities. When I was younger, I was absolutely terrified of "The X-Files", but couldn't take my eyes away.

So now, when I'm much older and realize that these concepts cannot exist without breaking all fundamental theorems of known physics, I find solace in the ideas presented by those who you feel are ghosts all around you: people who just tend to blend into the background or fade away completely. I feel like that's where I should be, and that's where I am (admittedly, by my own design - I go out of my way not to interact with people at parties or to even go to them at all; I tend to write music that sometimes is alienating or even what I like to call "headphone-centric, where you should block out everything else, like I do. Doesn't make me very popular, but again, that's not why I write music.). You'll notice I have another song called "geist" somewhere in my music on this site, which is obviously the German word for ghost (poltergeist - basically "angry spirit").

I could go on and on about my own personal ideas on it, but the whole point of this song is to convey to those who do not know me exactly what a large part of me is about: loneliness and its effect on those you love, for better or worse. //]